stuff inside my little mind

I sort of finished a story last month. After much thinking, I realize I’m not happy with the ending. It’s really, really hard not to steal someone else’s ideas storywise. This story is posted on Wattpad, titled “Darker Matter”. It’s a followup story to an idea I have, which, in truth, IS a different scifi subject. There aren’t many details in this story. Per some great advice by an author friend, I scratched out the background I had in there. I am in the process of getting the main story together.

OK, here’s my helping of a whineyburger and suckyfries: “WRITING IS SO HAAAAARD!!! WAAAAhaaaaa!” It really is. I have read tons of books. I was reading novels when I was 6 or 7 I think. So, in reality, I should know how to write? Right? I mean, I had straight “A’s” in english class. Seriously, the discipline to write something is hard. So far, on the main story, I have an outline and the beginning I wrote, which was crappy. Maybe it’s better to just get the ideas out and edit whack it later.

I’m thinking about changing the ending to the story I published. I really think I’ll do it after (whenever) the other story is done. Maybe I’ll flesh out something better. It’s a strong story, weak ending. To me, anyway, it just doesn’t quite meet the grade. I lean toward a comedic bent with my characters, too. So the “you need to be more serious” idea just doesn’t float too well with me.

A second story I have going is based in the same universe, but many years later; a “what if” that has gone horribly, horribly bad. I thought it would be quick, but it’s taking way too long to finish. It gets deep. And, sigh, I have to changeout one of the main characters in it, I think.

As my friend said, “editing is never finished”. Read my stuff, comment, laugh at my amateur efforts or whatever. I published two stories on Wattpad. The other was some random idea I had, but it ain’t finished. I don’t think I’ll pursue it, though. Needs some fill-in.

I won’t give up. I know I can write this. Maybe when I’m 80 or so, you’ll see my new novel.